
I get very easily overwhelmed. Because of this, I often feel that I set myself up for failure. I make lists all of time of things I want to do or that I need to do, but when it comes time to trying to accomplish all of the things on my list, I am often paralyzed, and I don’t know why. Do I just not have the energy I should? Am I unrealistic? Do I not know myself well enough to know what I can easily accomplish and what is just a pipe dream?
I decided this summer that I wanted to change my mindset and my way of operating. I have been riding my bike a lot in order to get into better shape, and I can feel that it is working. Not only is bike riding helping me in a physical way, but it is good therapy for me. Whenever I can, I try to start the day with a bike ride in order to clear my head and plan for the day ahead. Because we live in the country, a lot of my rides are very quiet and peaceful, and I’ve enjoyed this time to be alone with my thoughts. It’s made me think about what is important and what I need to focus more on, and it’s made me realize there is so much more to life than work. I’ve felt so good during my rides because finally, I feel I’m achieving more of that work-life balance.
I think part of the reason I get so very overwhelmed with life is that I focus way too much on the whole and not enough on the parts. I’m now reading a book that Joan Garfield recommended to me called Bird by Bird (by Anne Lamott) and it’s all about writing. I love it. Lamott suggests trying to write a little bit each day (and focusing not so much on the whole report about birds, but on each individual bird). She also highly recommends the “shitty first draft.” Joan recommended this book to me because we were talking about a paper I am writing that I have been working on since March. I have a good chunk of it done, but I’ve been dragging my feet because I feel it has to be perfect before I send it off to a journal editor, and I never feel like I have the time I need to sit down and just write. I now realize it doesn’t have to be perfect the first time around, and my new goal is to send to to a publisher by my birthday in October. Not long ago, in The Chronicle of Higher Education, Erin Templeton wrote about the “Rule of 200″ and described her goal of trying to write 200 words a day. This seems like a reasonable goal to set, in addition to being a way to break things into manageable “bird chunks,” and I want to try to do that.
http://chronicle.com/blogs/profhacker/the-rule-of-200/26343
I also think that sometimes my teaching load overwhelms me, not because of the work involved in teaching my classes, but because I never feel I have the time to make changes I would like to make in my classes. I also don’t feel I’m as organized as I can be in terms of keeping track of just what I want to change, or what should be changed. Another article came out this week in The Chronicle of Higher Education that recommends using Post-it Notes to improve one’s teaching.
http://chronicle.com/blogs/profhacker/simple-post-its-for-teaching-improvement/35863?sid=wc&utm_source=wc&utm_medium=en
In this article, Heather Whitney describes a professional development event she attended where:
“…a panelist, very new to the professoriate herself, mentioned that immediately after each class, before she does anything else or even touches her computer, she takes a large 5×8″ sticky note and writes down what did or didn’t work well in that class period. She sticks that to her papers from the class and then uses that note the next time she teaches the course to improve her teaching.”
This too is something I would like to begin doing. I do often jot down notes all over handouts and in various notebooks, but my problem is that I don’t always look back at these notes, and they aren’t written in a way that makes them “pop out” at me. I think using Post-it Notes might solve that problem.